So, I seriously have a problem with my hand – a hand in hair problem so to speak! It has been so bad lately that I have literally broken my hair off! *mouth drops open here!* Yes! It’s true! I have a spot at the crown of my head where the hair has broken so bad that it has also lost its curl pattern. A grown a$$ woman – pulling my hair out! *side eyeing myself*
Wow! I am absolutely stunned at how much my hair has grown in 3 months! It’s so much thicker and healthier! In the previous photos, it’s easy to see how my strands were uneven and I could not grasp a good amount to hold for the length check. In the current photos, you can see how the strands are pretty much the same length now and I can grasp a good bit of it to hold for the length check. Click here and here for my previous length checks for comparison.
Well, I’ve been thinking long and hard about what I should do about my hair. It seems no matter how much I trim, I can’t seem to get rid of the damaged ends. I’ve seriously been considering doing a semi BC again. That would be the worse case scenario, but it may come down to that. My hair goes really quickly, but it defeats the purpose if I’m constantly having to trim it.
When I started this journey, my hair wasn’t very healthy. This is where it all began. As I mentioned in my Hair Journey post, I did not intentionally decide to go back to natural. It was more like a – let me try this and see how I like it kind of thing. I learned to love my hair in the process. However, I’d done quite a bit of harm to it before I started. So now I’m at a crossroads. I’m quite frustrated right now. Sometimes I think of how much easier it was to care for my hair and grow it out while it was relaxed and I wish that I could have those same results with my natural hair. Don’t get me wrong, I’m definitely not thinking about returning to relaxers. That hasn’t even crossed my mind. I just wish that I could get my hair to a healthy state.
We are iced in today, so I decided to wash my hair. I didn’t wash last week so I definitely needed to this week. I’d pre-pooed last night and did a protein deep conditioning this morning. During my standard wash (non-clarifying) I noticed how defined my coils were. I’d be considering trying a wash n go again for some time, so I decided to see how it would work now that my hair is a bit longer. So I did my ACV rinse, moisturized, and sealed. Then I flipped my head over and shook my coils and then let my hair dry (curly girl method I think this is called). I finally got a decent wash n go!!! I kinda like it!
…is frustrating me now!!! I never thought that I’d be complaining because my hair has GROWN! *side eyeing myself* When I first started this journey, all I could think about was “I can’t wait until my curls hang!” But now that she has grown, I’ve found that she doesn’t stand up like I want her to anymore!!! I preferred my twist outs to stand up rather than hanging down. I loved the wildness and volume that I had when it was shorter. It seemed to have more life and seemed to say, “Look at me!!!” Now, she hangs all neat, prim, and proper. I guess she’s saying that I’m never satisfied. LOL
So last night I massaged my edges with JBCO and aloe vera gel. Can’t say that it made much of a difference. But I’m sure it will take time and consistent use before I’m able to tell if it’s helping or not.
After work I came home, took my hair down, and observed my scalp. I noticed that it is very dry and when I scratched it, it started to flake. I went through my whole head and gently scratched and it flaked. I’m starting to think that I could possibly be dealing with severe dryness and dandruff. Now I don’t understand why this would be. I do hot weekly hot oil treatments but then again, other than that I never oil my scalp. Being that I slept with conditioner and oil in my hair overnight one would assume that my scalp would be sufficiently oiled right now.
Could the products have dryed my scalp? Is it possible for my scalp to be so dry after all of that? I guess it is possible because that’s exactly what it looks like. I haven’t noticed anymore breakage or areas where it looks as if my hair is falling out. Thank you, God for that!
I’ve been researching about scalp psoriasis and folliculitis and from what I’ve read symptoms are the scalp would be covered with silvery flakes, which is not what I have on my scalp. So I’m pretty much ruling that out for the time being. However, I also found that dandruff can be caused by irritated, dry skin (known as Seborrheic dermatitis), reactions to certain products (which I’m starting to think is my problem), dry skin (which we all know), stress (which I’ve had plenty of!), yeast (don’t know why I would suddenly have this issue), and a host of other reasons.
So I’m going to oil my scalp really good and keep massaging with the oil and aloe vera gel and see if this resolves the problem. *crossing eyes, fingers, and toes*
Yesterday was wash day but I didn’t do a shampoo wash, only a co-wash, so no ACV rinse this time. I did a combo deep condition and hot oil treatment as I’ve been doing for the past month or so. After washing, I used HH as my leave-in and I sealed with EVOO. I used Elasta QP mango lime curl pudding and EcoStyler get to set my twists. To prevent residue and stiffness from the gel, I applied coconut oil right before twisting. I banded the roots for some stretch, but didn’t pin them. My curls were very defined this morning after untwisting.
Today was 70’s day at school. I didn’t have 70’s attire but I did have the fro to rock! I’m loving the versatility of my hair! All of the fake afro wigs in the place – mine was the only real one! Not to mention that besides myself, there’s only one more black teacher at my school. And guess what! My hair got much props today! That makes me wonder, why can other races appreciate our beautiful curls, coils, and kinks more than those that have the same thing growing from their scalps? That baffles me… *blank stare* Even my kids loved it! Moving on…
I was home with a sick kiddo today and in my boredom I decided to play around with my hair. This is the outcome…a frohawk – another one of those styles that I swore I would never wear. I dusted my ends a tad last night as I twisted it and I’m noticing that my curls stayed defined and there is barely any frizz now. I kinda like it!